Denim on Denim

My Instagram account was hacked yesterday.

I’m still trying to process it - what happened, if it came from a random source or someone in my life.. or if anything can be recovered. But within hours, over 1,000 posts I created over three years were randomly wiped out.

When someone compromises your identity, it feels like they’re under your skin. Crawling, and grabbing at the pieces of you you’ve worked so hard to create.

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I anticipated writing this tip in reference to stigma - specifically in this case, the one around the Double D that’s been pervasive up until just this past year, when I started to notice people wearing the ‘Canadian Tuxedo’ all over the streets of New York (so much so, that Net-a-Porter even wrote an article about it!)

But things are a little different, now that it feels as though someone has put their hands all over my bare skin. The owner of over 25 jean jackets (with no intention to stop buying them) I’ve chosen to wear my denim on denim (often with an additional denim) for so long that it’s come to feel like a second skin. However after this hack, it feels as though somebody has ripped it off, and I’m more aware of how much of an armor I‘ve allowed it to become.

In a society where trends often prevail over fit and personal taste, over the past five years I’ve found I’ve had to champion this look on my own. I do a lot of things on my own. I live alone, work alone. I’m not afraid to go to the movies alone or grab lunch either. But there’s something about your favorite thing becoming popular that feels off-putting. We can all relate. There’s that trope about what happens when your favorite band makes it big. ‘You never listened to their early stuff,’ one’s prone to say.

So please allow me to demystify things for you. I’m happy to see my favorite look taking off, but trends? They’re the opposite of stigma, and they don’t exist beyond whatever the media or runway designers have chosen to highlight. In many ways, they’re created to inspire disparity, especially socially, when looking upward, which is almost impossible not to. We live in an age of social media and influencers who are paid by companies to make you feel like you’re not good enough if you don’t have debloating tummy tea or subscribe to a box of Fab Fit Fun, etc.

Per Hidden Brain, if we want to de-stress, it’s import to remind ourselves not only of our own status but those who work to reach for the goals we have accomplished that feel unattainable to others. However, if we want to motivate, we look upwards and compare compare compare.

Right now, I need to de-stress and remind myself of all that has been and all that will be in the future. I didn’t lose clients, I didn’t lose money. The majority of the work on my account right now is from when I just started out as a stylist, so maybe I needed that kick in the pants to show me how far I’ve come. Because it’s pretty fucking far. And nothing about this attack will keep me from continuing to make work.

So sure, they can take my posts. But they can’t take my creativity.

That’s all mine.